Love!

Lucky you- so many posts in one night;) Yep, this is what the cool kids that live with their parents, ugh I mean roommates, at 25 do on a Saturday night. Wow I didn't think it was possible to be even more depressed- I was wrong. If this was high school there is no doubt that I'd be slushied for my looserdom.

Anywho,

As you can imagine one of the lies that I have been battling is that very important men in my life (My dad and my husband) literally chose death over being with me so I must not be worthy of love. Beyond that, the lie expands to tell me I will never be loved. I know this is untrue. I am already loved by so many but these evil thoughts have a way of invading you. They are mice that find the tiniest crack to scurry through and wreak havock. This song has been especially great in reminding me that God loves me just as I am. The second verse speaks to me directly!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fUM86eL6tVw

PS: As someone who receives love through encouragement feel free to comment on any posts. It feels a little weird knowing people are reading but I am not interacting with you. Thanks for listening guys. The blog helps tremendously as I often have a hard time verbally expressing what I am feeling. I even tell my mom to read it because some things I just can't explain :) Have a great night. I think this will be it for now ;)